I can’t sleep. I must sleep. I can’t get the thought of you out of my head.
Where are you? Where am I? I’m thinking of you. Are you thinking of me? I know that you have trouble sleeping too.
We never were close. But I loved you. You were the shining star, for all. I never told you that I loved you. Do you know that I DO love you? It kills me to think that I never got close to you. We fought. I hated you for it, each time. You would get unreasonable sometimes. But I was a kid. Still am. At heart.
I still long for your presence beside me. Where are you? Are you there? I hope that somewhere in the heavens or earth, you can hear me, right now. Today if not right now. Tomorrow if not today. Sooner rather than later. Soon? Now!
I have regrets. I want you to know that I’m sorry. I would say sorry for the rest of my days if it meant fixing it all. I cried beside you the last time I was with you. You tried to sweep my tears away. You touched me, again. Your hands shook. You had tears in your eyes. They meant an eternity to me. I won’t ever forget that.
I will never forget you and I pray for you every chance that I get. The painting on my wall attests to that. You will be the best, for me, forever. The best of us, in the here and in the hereafter.
I miss you. Everyday. I love you, Amber Baji!
Lazy - Deep Purple 
this really is heart aching. sometimes it just puts us through misery and nothing else – but does it help us evolve? into a better us?
You might have a point there but even if it did help US evolve into a better us, I feel it’s not worth someone elses life.
This brought tears to my eyes, Kashu. Sending so prayers and love your way, my friend. I am sure your warmth has reached her. I am so sure.
To your happiness, Kashif.
Thank you so much Mehr. You have no idea how much all that means to me. =)
so many*
sigh. forgive the typo.
Wonderfully write Kashif.
Hope your message gets to her. 🙂
I really hope so too, Alina. Thanks for commenting! =)